Self-guilt

No more self-guilt dear self

It wasn't your fault that they left

It wasn't your fault that he left

You need to trust yourself

And you need to trust other people

And you need to trust your future

Most importantly, you need to trust Allah

Kerana Allah itu mengikut sangkaan hambaNya

57:22

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مَا أَصَابَ مِن مُّصِيبَةٍ فِي الْأَرْضِ وَلَا فِي أَنفُسِكُمْ إِلَّا فِي كِتَابٍ مِّن قَبْلِ أَن نَّبْرَأَهَا ۚ إِنَّ ذَٰلِكَ عَلَى اللَّهِ يَسِيرٌ

Tidak ada sesuatu kesusahan (atau bala bencana) yang ditimpakan di bumi, dan tidak juga yang menimpa diri kamu, melainkan telah sedia ada di dalam Kitab (pengetahuan Kami) sebelum Kami menjadikannya; sesungguhnya mengadakan yang demikian itu adalah mudah bagi Allah.

Among Those That I Miss

Among the things that I miss is browsing through pictures of friends all around the world attending program tarbiyyah. Now lagi banyak org post about their marriage life, working life and post-graduation life that it feels kind of sad and empty to see the walls yg dulu penuh with kata-kata hikmah para sahabat dan tadabbur al-Quran dipenuhi update pasal scholarship and politik lokaliti semasa.

Not that I don't agree with it. People are constantly moving from one phase to another. Who am I to tell them to stop or live as what I deem they should be. 

Sekarang ni, teramatlah ajaib utk jumpa manusia berumur 23 tahun dan keatas yg masih ad that youthful zeal utk bangkitkan Islam semula melalui maratib amal. Sekarang ni, lagi mudah jumpa org yg post pasal day out with friends prgi resort mahal atau travel trips atau their partners atau their job atau their uni achievements sahaja. 

Ikhwah, akhwat,

Aku rindu zaman kita masih muda

Tatkala kita semua masih segar dgn fikrah tarbiyah

Dan bersemangat utk hidup dibawah naungan al-Quran

Kemana perginya dirimu setelah sekian lama kita tak ketemu?

Aku harap kau masih lg memegang Allah sbg paksimu

Meskipun mungkin, toriq amal dan fokus kita sudah berbeza kini

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Yes, I truly miss those younger days. When I would hear about tujuan hidup and IDQ as normal as I would hear about the sun and the rain.

Moga Allah tsabatkan kita semua atas siratolmustaqim.

Rindu those three from the right :'(

Needs

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful

12.10am

14 Zulhijjah 1438H

Galway

I needed Allah not because I want to be labelled 'alim' or 'solehah'

I needed Allah because I really need Him in the days that I feel like giving up

In the days that are bland and monotonous

Because if without Him, where else can I go to heal this broken heart 

Where else can I go to re-wire my messed up thoughts

I needed tarbiyyah not because I wanted to be above everybody

Heck, there's easier and better ways to gain popularity and fame than being in tarbiyyah

I needed tarbiyyah because without it I'll lose all hope

I might end up making mistakes that can never be mended

And act without any shame, doing everything to my heart's desire

I need du'as

Everyday

Because you know what,

If I'm working through life on my own

Without others sending me their prayers

I might not be here

In tarbiyyah

Or taking medicine

And right now

I super need du'a

Rasa macam nak terjelopok dah ni

That level of procrastination and laziness is coming to a peak in this wave of yazid wa yankuz

Bak kata sahabat Rasulullah SAW,

"Aku tidak takut doa aku tidak dimakbulkan, yang aku takut adalah jika aku berhenti utk berdoa."

Moga Allah jadikan kita mereka yg Dia pilih

Utk terus ikhlas dan beramal utk memenuhi jihad tujuan hidup kita

Because I need His guidance, His power and His kindness

To get through this

And I know you peeps would need it too

Holy Quran 29:69

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وَالَّذِينَ جَاهَدُوا فِينَا لَنَهْدِيَنَّهُمْ سُبُلَنَا ۚ وَإِنَّ اللَّهَ لَمَعَ الْمُحْسِنِينَ

And those who strive for Us - We will surely guide them to Our ways. And indeed, Allah is with the doers of good.