Writings

I have found that Hlovate and Inche Gabbana have been those two writers that have inspired me, more than anyone, to write and believe in change.

And they are - despite being anonymous to a certain degree - have given a significant impact on my teen memories.

And so I have decided, to continue writing, with hopes that one day I can be as wonderful as they are, in DnT and also in inspiring people with my writing.

Biiznillah.

For the Days I Would Need This

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

I can never begin without those miraculous words.
*smiles*

Well, they say write for days that you would need these words. And after so long of having words stuck in my head, never having the guts to pen them down, I am finally writing back again. Women, I might say, write more of their experiences and how they emotionally feel over a situation or a life experience. And to me, writing of such objective, heavy and substantial matter does not allow me to have a smooth flow of thoughts as I have to severally go through articles and mountain-loads of information in order to generate a solid opinion on a subject matter.

Thus, to keep the ball rolling, and also my fingers typing (insanely), I shall choose to speak for my own need before trailing of somewhere that I have no ability - nor fondness, to write about.

I'm in my third year now of being a medical student, and so far life has been a thrilling experience altogether. Many things happened during the hiatus and gaps of my blog posts that I simply cannot speak of nonchalantly. However, it does not correspond to the amount of happiness, excitement and enlightenment that I have endured which probably, a normal person in this era would definitely spawn countless FB status, Insta posts and tweets describing such events. The times shared are priceless, and all I can say is that

I am blessed. Inside, out. Heart and body. Mind and soul.

Despite all the positive energy I radiate in the words mentioned above, I no doubt have also face a number of depressing events which in relation to all the beautiful things I've been through, is just a pinch of salt as a comparison. I'm not always like this. But tonight alhamdulillah, with Ali Sastra's song Doaku in the background, I am compelled to write on this piece of canvas - a note for myself. Something that I can read over, and over again when I feel doubtful, scared and lost. Something that could probably come second or third after getting consoled by the Quran.

Here's a picture of a cat so that I can laugh at my own randomness one day.

Dear Sabreena,

This note is for you. And everything else in it, I believe, will benefit you and many more people.

*smiles*

It has been proven that, one of the many therapies done to make people feel more happy of their lives is to start counting their blessings. And we will not go with the term 'too much blessings, can't count them' kind-of-attitude. Instead, let us list down those that are relevant to you.

Things you should be grateful:-

1. For knowing that Allah exists, and believing in it

2. For Islam and iman

3. For your parents

4. For your limbs and cognition; the ability to move and the ability to articulate

5. For being able to study something that you like

6. For being able to continue your education itself

7. For tarbiyyah :')

8. For having a murabbi, usrahmates, and the understanding to do dakwah

9. For your friends

10. For being able to understand, comprehend, and make sense of the many things you come across in life

11. For having shelter, enough food, water and sanitation

12. For being excepted in society and not being violently excluded

13. For clear vision and having the ability to appreciate colours

14. For wanting to live under the shade of Quran rather than a life of following my own whim

And so much more!

This list is just the tip of the iceberg. Imagine all the cells working in your body working hard to keep you alive. The probability of them going bonkers is so high yet Allah chose to not spread any malignancy inside you and allows you to live a healthy is in itself a huge blessing.

Apatah lagi apabila menyebut tentang tarbiyah dan segala yang dipelajari melaluinya. It's no longer a majlis ilmu that you attend to fill your head with new knowledge. It's a place that nurtures your heart and thoughts, shaping it to view the world beyond what is seen by the naked eye. Beyond time, beyond space, beyond the limits a normal person views it. It's not just about knowing that Jannah and Jahannam exist. It's not just about knowing that the Day of Judgement is sure to come. It's believing that it will happen, being afraid of the day itself instills a fear to move forward - and that is such a rewarding feeling. When the whole world is battling against each other over policies to make in dealing with alcohol consumption and world famine, homicides and suicides, you know a remedy that can cure all the world problems. You're working to cure the root of the problem - iman - within yourself and others as well.

You are blessed
Because of all the prayers people make for you
Those who are anonymous to you

And especially, from those who love you endlessly

So dear Sabreena,

And everybody else reading this.

Remember that you are loved, and you are cared for. Not simply by those you can see by your naked eye. But by a being far more superior. And He never stops loving.

And for that, all praises be to Him - Alhamdulillah.

Ranks

Embracing Islam

You are called a Muslim

But not all Muslims are Mu'mins

And not all Mu'mins can become Muhsins

Before Allah ranks us,

how do we rank ourselves really?

And we keep on saying

till Jannah

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till Jannah

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till Jannah

Are we actually working for it

or are we merely repeating words like a chant?